dear diary,

i'm in love. its a whole different game plan. its not that i love someone, its that i'm in love with someone. its ironic after what i've been through that i'd hang on to a love thats oceans away. most would never understand this type of love, honestly i know not means to articulate and explain it. i'm not even capable to explain the love itself. Love is oh so mysterious and crazy, yet beautiful when you have it. for the first time in my life i have never ending butterflies in my stomach and i'm driven into it day and again where i feel as though i'm not in control of my heart! I am when i think about her, her smile and sorts, i know its real. i guess thats all i need at this time. i'm holding on with all i got to her. yes i'm lesbian to you who might not know. i've met one lesbian from my country, not so far from where i live. i know what you're thinking- good booty call? lol. I wish! but honestly she just doesn't compare. i'm in love, i love someone again. its about damn time!